I am frustrated I am depressed I am me

This might as well be another about me entry but nevertheless. I am still writing it.

You guys ever had that day when you get so frustrated over something so bad that it ruins one of the best once in a lifetime opportunities you'll ever have in your life. Well sure as punches hurt like hell I've been through it. Today was our batches first field trip. The first field trip we had in our history of being high school students, but as usual. Wild radicals always intervene to mess up my day. Damn I hate it mood swings make me feel like shit causing unbearably painful mental pain. Making me one hell of a sadistic masochistic sober pained agonized frustrated depressed retarded uncaring unsympathetic carelessly hateful asshole. Its like that everyday recently. Then tomorrow I'd feel like a bouncing ball of sunshine again then the next day the same again. It's a cycle it pisses me off. Maybe one day it will lead to suicidal tendencies but till that day comes. I'm better off hurting myself or others...